I had sex with Jesus!

Now before you get all your feathers ruffled up, let me just say that yesterday was a great day for me. It started the night before, actually, when I was writing out a sharing on how Theology of the Body changed the way I practised my faith.

According to what I learnt, the vows made by a man and a woman at the altar when they are married are vows to love each other freely, totally, faithfully, and fruitfully. If you don’t believe me, go check the vows:

1. Have you come here freely and without reservation to give yourselves to each other in marriage? [freely, totally]

2. Will you love and honour each other as man and wife for the rest of your lives? [faithfully]

3. Will you accept children loving from God, and bring them up according to the law of Christ and his Church? [fruitfully]

But taking the marriage vows only makes the marriage valid. What seals the marriage is when the couple, later that wedding night, makes their own body a gift to each other on their wedding bed during conjugal intercourse. This is when the marriage is consummated. When they do this, they are actualizing their marital vows. Their wedding vows of free, total, faithful, fruitful love are lived out in reality as they give themselves to each other freely, totally, faithfully and fruitfully.

Each time that the married couple has conjugal intercourse from them on, they are renewing their marital vows, and they are sharing one body with the other.

In Baptism, a person receives the sacrament of his own free will (freely), unconditionally accepts all the teachings of Christ and his Church (total), promises to remain faithful to Christ and his Church (faithful), and receives the fruit of the forgiveness of sins and life everlasting (fruitful).

In an adult baptism Mass, the baptism is always followed by Holy Communion, because reception of Holy Communion consummates the vows made at baptism. Therefore, each time a Catholic receives Holy Communion, he is renewing his baptismal vows, and he is sharing one body with Christ.

Yesterday, when I attended Mass, during the preparation of the altar, I had this image in my head of a bed being lovingly prepared. The lights are dimmed, the pillows are fluffed, the bed is scented and scattered with rose petals. During the Eucharistic prayer, I felt like it was foreplay, and I was growing ever more excited to receive Christ into me. And when it finally came to receiving Holy Communion, I went up to the priest in smiles and received Christ into me.

That feeling of ecstasy stayed with me for hours after that, and I was feeling so happy throughout the night! So when a friend asked me why I was feeling so happy, I replied, “I had sex with Jesus today!”

36 Responses to “I had sex with Jesus!”

  1. If I may point out to you, it is quite inappropriate language for someone whom we call “Our Lord” and whom we acknowledge as our Creator and Saviour. One priest used to say to me, “He may be your friend, but he’s also YOUR LORD!”, recalling the words of the Creed , “We believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ, … “.

  2. Hi tristan,

    I would like to ask: Why is it inappropriate language?

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  3. *sigh*. Would you go around telling people,

    “I had sex with my boss/king/president/mother/father”

    … just because you had a particular affection for them (eg. your parents brought you up)?

  4. Hi tristan,

    No, I wouldn’t do that, because none of these people have given their bodies to me, and none of these people desire to have full communion with me.

    But I would go around telling people that I had sex with my spouse.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  5. But Jesus is not your spouse! He is, like what we say in the Creed every sunday, our Creator, Our Lord!

  6. “I would go around telling people that I had sex with my spouse.”

    OK, that’s also pretty weird in most cultures, I would imagine.

    Not doing it, but certainly going around saying it!

  7. hey… i think this post is nicely written.. kind of sums up my anticipation of recieving the holy communion.. still going through RCIA though..

  8. Hi tristan,

    Let me just share some quotes from Pope John Paul II’s “Letter to Families” written in 1994.

    - The “communion of persons”, expressed as conjugal love at the beginning of the family, is thus completed and brought to fulfilment in the raising of children.

    - This is the deepest significance of the “great mystery”, the inner meaning of the sacramental gift in the Church, the most profound meaning of Baptism and the Eucharist. They are fruits of the love with which the Bridegroom has loved us to the end, a love which continually expands and lavishes on people an ever greater sharing in the supernatural life.

    - Saint Paul, after having said: “Husbands, love your wives” (Eph 5:25), emphatically adds: “Even so husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. For no man ever hates his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, as Christ does the Church, because we are members of his body” (Eph 5:28-30). And he encourages spouses with the words: “Be subject to one another out of reverence for Christ” (Eph 5:21).

    - This is unquestionably a new presentation of the eternal truth about marriage and the family in the light of the New Covenant. Christ has revealed this truth in the Gospel by his presence at Cana in Galilee, by the sacrifice of the Cross and the Sacraments of his Church. Husbands and wives thus discover in Christ the point of reference for their spousal love. In speaking of Christ as the Bridegroom of the Church, Saint Paul uses the analogy of spousal love, referring back to the Book of Genesis: “A man leaves his father and his mother and cleaves to his wife, and they become one flesh” (Gen 2:24). This is the “great mystery” of that eternal love already present in creation, revealed in Christ and entrusted to the Church. “This mystery is a profound one”, the Apostle repeats, “and I am saying that it refers to Christ and the Church” (Eph 5:32).

    - The Church cannot therefore be understood as the Mystical Body of Christ, as the sign of man’s Covenant with God in Christ, or as the universal sacrament of salvation, unless we keep in mind the “great mystery” involved in the creation of man as male and female and the vocation of both to conjugal love, to fatherhood and to motherhood. The “great mystery”, which is the Church and humanity in Christ, does not exist apart from the “great mystery” expressed in the “one flesh” (cf. Gen 2:24; Eph 5:31-32), that is, in the reality of marriage and the family.

    You can get the rest of the letter from the Vatican website. Just google for “Letter to Families”.

    So yes, as I (and you) are members of the Church, Jesus is most definitely our Spouse, our Bridegroom! As God wonderfully said through the prophet Hosea:
    I will betroth you to myself for ever,
    betroth you with integrity and justice,
    with tenderness and love.
    (Hosea 2:19)

    It also says in CCC #1617 that:

    - The entire Christian life bears the mark of the spousal love of Christ and the Church. Already Baptism, the entry into the People of God, is a nuptial mystery; it is so to speak the nuptial bath which precedes the wedding feast, the Eucharist.

    And in Mulieris Dignitatem (n. 26), Pope John Paul II writes:

    - We find ourselves at the very heart of the Paschal Mystery, which completely reveals the spousal love of God.

    - The Eucharist is the Sacrament of our Redemption. It is the Sacrament of the Bridegroom and of the Bride. The Eucharist makes present and realizes anew in a sacramental manner the redemptive act of Christ, who “creates” the Church, his body.

    - Christ is united with this “body” as the bridegroom with the bride.

    Oh, by the way, I had sex with Jesus again yesterday during Mass. But if you’re too embarrassed to say it, you can always say, “I united myself with Jesus”.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  9. Hi EmbarrassedCatholic,

    I think that some of us are embarrassed to say that we had sex with our spouse because we think that sex is ‘dirty’. There is of course the story told to me by a priest, of how some Catholic couples, when they are about to have sex, they would reverse the holy images in their rooms!

    Isn’t it strange that in many cultures today, especially the Western culture, we have no shame in saying we had sex with so-and-so, but not with our own spouse? The sacred act of sex, that union between spouses which is meant to reflect the union with Christ and his Church, has seem to lost so much of its value these days.

    Sex with our spouse is something greatly to be treasured these days. It is a married Catholic’s way of witnessing to Christ and his Church, that the love that this spousal love that this Catholic couple shares mirrors the spousal love between Christ and his Church.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  10. Hi veronica,

    Glad that you found this post interesting. Remember it on the day of your baptism, as you ready yourself, like a bride for her bridegroom.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  11. well, I suppose that since you had sex with Jesus … one of you would get pregnant …

  12. Hi tristan,

    Glad you came back. You’re absolutely right! When we receive the Body of Christ into our own, in a mysterious way, like a bride, we conceive new life in us - life in the Holy Spirit.

    (Source: http://www.catholiceducation.org/articles/sexuality/se0096.html)

    We become pregnant with the Word of God, and we bring God into the world where we are. And as you know, there was one human who, conceived without original sin, received God so completely into herself that she literally became pregnant with the Word of God, and brought Jesus into the world!

    Remember also that procreation is not the only end of marriage. As it says in Gaudium et Spes, n. 49:

    “Such love, merging the human and the divine, leads the spouses to a free and mutual gift of themselves, a gift providing itself by gentle affection, and by deed; such love pervades the whole of their lives, growing better and growing greater by its generosity.”

    In other words, just as the love between a husband and wife is strengthened each time they engage in conjugal love, so too is our love for Jesus is strengthened when we frequently receive Holy Communion, for it is in these that there is the “merging of the human and the divine”… What a wonderful way of describing both conjugal love and Holy Communion, don’t you think?

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  13. Not that sexual union is a bad thing if done according to the laws of God and Holy Mother Church.

    The reception of Holy Communion in a soul in the state of sanctifying grace far surpasses sexual union between husband and wife, in that it increases sanctifying grace that is already in the soul, as well as remitting venial faults and temporal punishment. And sanctifying grace is that which is “the seed of eternal glory” - the Beatific Vision.

    Holy Communion is a Sacrament proper, whereas the conjugal act is an expression of the charity that flows from the graces of the Sacrament of Marriage.

    One should not confuse the fruits of a Sacrament with a Sacrament in itself. Christ giving Himself to us Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity IS a Sacrament. The conjugal act is a fruit of the Sacrament of Marriage. One is a cause, the other is an effect.

    Hence, one should do justice to both Holy Communion and the marital act by humbly submitting to the proper terminology laid forth by Mother Church. For we should examine our consciences always to see if there is any hint of pride in our speech or actions, since pride is the root of all sins. The safest path is always the one offered by Mother Church and we do otherwise to our own peril.

  14. Hi friendoftristan,

    Welcome to this blog!

    I agree: sexual union if done according to the laws of God and the Church is far from being “not a bad thing”. In fact, it is not simply “not a bad thing”, but it is a GOOD thing and it should be encouraged between married couples!

    I do, however, disagree that the reception of Holy Communion in a soul in the state of sanctifying grace “far surpasses” sexual union between husband and wife. How do you compare which sacrament is greater than another? It’s like comparing apples to oranges. Let me explain:

    Holy Communion is a sacrament of Christian initiation. It confers the graces needed for the life according to the Spirit during this life as pilgrims on the march towards the homeland (CCC 1533). In other words, this sacrament is directed towards our own salvation.

    The sacrament of marriage, however, is directed towards the salvation of others. If they contribute to personal salvation as well, it is through service to others that they do. This sacrament serves to build up the People of God. (CCC 1534)

    Both sacraments are equally important in the life of the Church. The Eucharist is the union of Christ and his Church. Without the Eucharist, marriage would not be a sacrament as it would not reflect God’s love. Likewise, without marriage, the Eucharist loses its meaning as a union of Christ and his Church as well as there would be no union.

    The Eucharist is the marriage of the Lamb and her Bride. When we partake of the bread and wine, we are enfleshing this marriage; we are living out our baptismal vows. In the same way when married couples engage in conjugal love, they are enfleshing their own marriage, and because of that, also the marriage of Lamb and her Bride; and they are living out their wedding vows.

    I also disagree that conjugal love is a “fruit” of a sacrament of marriage. It really is comparing apples to oranges, because the Holy Communion is a sacrament of initiation, while marriage is a sacrament of vocation. You can receive Holy Communion many times in your lifetime, but marriage only once.

    Does this mean that Holy Communion is less effective than marriage, since you have to receive it so many times? Of course not. Does that mean that when a person receives the sacrament of marriage at the wedding altar, he no longer receives the graces of the marriage? Of course not.

    It is through conjugal love that is free, unconditional, faithful, and open to children that God sends additional graces that produces the fruits of marriage - children, and the purification and strengthening of the marital bond. (cf CCC 1643)

    Without conjugal love, there would be no consummation of marriage. In other words, conjugal love is part of the sacrament of marriage. Conjugal love seals the sacrament of marriage, completes it, perfects it. Sexual union is where the wedding vows become flesh. The very language that God has inscribed in sexual intercourse is the language of the marriage covenant: the free commitment to a union of love that is indissoluble, faithful, and open to children.

    —-

    Regarding that last paragraph, are you thinking that pride is the reason behind what I write here? Well, to be honest, the reason why I wrote what I wrote about having sex with Jesus is simply to attract attention. Not to myself, but to draw attention to the reality that sex is really about communion (not so much that Communion is about sex which you and tristan can’t seem to get past).

    I want to draw attention to the reality that sexual union, if it is free, unconditional, faithful, and open to children, is a renewal and strengthening of wedding vows. It is to show how simply talking about sex, which everyone is interested in, can lead to evangelization. Just take a look at how much has been discussed about Christ and his Church just by talking about sex.

    I agree with you that using “sex with Jesus” as a title is wrong terminology. The title merely draws the reader deeper, like an advertisement draws a person to view a product rather than glance at it. Once you’re looking at the product (communion with Christ in this case), you’re supposed to forget about the advertisement, for it has served its purpose. Only the most petty would point out to the salesperson, “Hey, smoking your cigarette doesn’t make me attract the ladies like the Marlboro man does!” or “Hey, I’m not lovin’ my Big Mac as much as your advertisement said I would!”

    Like I said to tristan before, look deeper. Don’t get so hung up on the title and the wrong use of words that you miss what the article is really saying. There is a desire in all our hearts, a deep desire for communion with another person. At the very heart of the matter is that we were all made for God.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  15. “I do, however, disagree that the reception of Holy Communion in a soul in the state of sanctifying grace “far surpasses” sexual union between husband and wife. How do you compare which sacrament is greater than another?”

    Simple, because one is a Sacrament while the other is not.

    Marriage is defined as:

    “the conjugal union of a man and woman who are free from impediments, which binds them to a life lived in common and together”.

    “Explanation of the definition: I. Union: this word if taken in its active meaning, i.e. for the transitory act of internal and external consent by which the man and woman promise conjugal fidelity to each other, refers to the marriage actually being made (in fieri) and is the sacrament of Marriage (between Christians); if understood in its passive meaning i.e. for the effect produced or the state of life resulting from the consent, it refers to the state of marriage (in facto esse) and is the actual bond of marriage. Therefore the essence of the contract (which is the sacrament) of marriage consists in the mutual consent of both parties, and not in the act of sexual intercourse, as some authors have taught. - Handbook of Moral Theology by Dominic M. Prummer OP. Nihil Obstat given by Reverend D. Thomas E. Bird, STD PhD, Imprimatur by +Franciscus Archiepiscopus Birmingamiensis.

    I have no desire to nitpick your article. But you cannot expect people to not get “hung up” when you have such a title and also have the wrong use of words. In today’s situation when most children and teenagers from the catechetical system have no idea of transubstantiation or any knowledge of the theological virtues, the last thing anyone should do is use the wrong words.

    +JMJ+

  16. Hi friendoftristan,

    You are absolutely right in your explanations of the validity of marriage. However, what Dominic M. Prummer, OP is referring to is the external sign of the marriage, that is the contract. Consent makes the marriage valid, but it does not make it indissoluble, for according to Canon Law, it is possible for a person to seek dispensation from non-consummated marriage (Can. 1697). We know that “what God has joined together, man must not divide” (Mt 19:6). If a pope (a man) can dispense a non-consummated marriage, what does it say about the sacrament?

    What makes the marriage indissoluble, however, is the consummation of the marriage, for that is where a man is “joined to his wife, and the two will become one body” (Gen 2:24 / Mt 19:5 / Eph 5:31).

    “The Lord himself shows that this signifies an unbreakable union of their two lives by recalling what the plan of the Creator had been “in the beginning”; “So they are no longer two, but one flesh.” (CCC 1605)

    Let me put it this way - the sacrament of marriage without sexual union between husband and wife is like the sacrament of the Eucharist without Christ dying on the cross. Simply put, without sexual union, there is no sacrament.

    Sexual union consummates the marriage. When Christ was crucified, he said, “It is finished.” The Latin version reads: Consummatum est. (Jn 19:30)

    Christ dying on the cross, his giving of his body to his Bride is what consummates the marriage of the Lamb and the Bride. Each time that we celebrate the Eucharist, we are participating in the Eucharist that he instituted at the Last Supper and consummated on the cross. We participate by uniting our bodies with that of Christ. In the same way, each time a husband and wife experiences sexual union by uniting their bodies, they are participating in the marriage that they celebrated on their wedding day, and consummated on their wedding night.

    However, not every act of sexual intercourse is sacrament. Only a sexual union in which God is present, and those who participate in it have the required dispositions. In this case, the act of sexual union has to be a freely chosen, unconditional gift of self in a faithful and fruitful way. These are the wedding vows that the married couple made. An act of sexual intercourse that does not fulfil one of these conditions is a violation of the marriage vows. I can go into detail if needed.

    Still think that conjugal love is not a sacrament? I can explain it in other ways if this is not clear.

    I agree with you that in today’s situation, most children and teenagers, and even adults, have no idea of have a poor knowledge of the Christian faith. And talking to them about it, even with the right words, won’t interest them at all. It will probably just turn them off. But talk to them about sex, and link it with the Holy Communion they receive every week at Mass, and they might perk up and pay attention to the real meaning behind the call to communion. Hence the title of this article.

    Incidentally, in the final paragraph of my article, I mentioned a friend that I was talking to. That friend is a 15-year-old lady who, on hearing my provocative statement, was immediately interested hearing what else I had to share. And I was able to explain to her the meaning of my statement, which helped her to reflect more deeply on the sacrament of the Eucharist.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  17. So what about the marriage between Mary and Joseph?

  18. Dear Catholic Writer,

    you should realize that if you want people to “look deeper” and “get the message” then you have to think about how you package the message itself. saying “I had sex with Jesus” does nothing to help. I think you should have had enough life experience to realize this.

    To get what I mean, try telling your parish priest, “thank you for allowing me to have sex with Jesus.” Let’s say he scolds you for the same reasons that I am pointing out to you. Then let’s say you reply, “but you are not looking deeper into what I am saying!”. Hehehe.

    I really don’t understand why you must dig out all the theology to justify your own use of the word “sex” to indicate your reception of holy communion. You call yourself “catholic writer” but as a writer you should understand better than anyone else the importance of using the proper and appropriate words.

    oh boy, I think I have said enough to you. Anyway, I believe you are old enough to decide what to say and what not to say.

  19. Hi tabitubby,

    I think that question warrants a whole separate article on its own. I’ll prepare it and let you know soon. :)

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  20. Hi tristan,

    I cannot expect you to understand or empathize with the experience that I’ve had, but I would, at the very least, expect you not to criticize my choice of words without providing a better alternative. I know of no other term that best describes this mystical experience I have had with Jesus. If I knew of another, I would have used it. All the theology that has gone here is to show that what I have experienced is not new to the Church, but still, as your knowledge of the Catholic faith exceeds my own, I ask that if you know of a term that the Church has to describe my experience, please do share it.

    If not, I shall have to continue to use this term “having sex with Jesus” because, while inappropriate and inadequate, it is the least inadequate way I know of to describe that experience I had at Mass. The only other word that comes close would be the word ‘ecstasy’, and I think you would have similar things to say about it had I used that word. Imagine: “I had ecstasy with Jesus” or “Union with Jesus brought me into the throes of ecstasy”.

    I have only twice had this experience before, and I pray that you too may one day get to experience it. Then you will know that the choice of words that I used to describe it is as best as it can get.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  21. Hi pervert!!!!! Sex with Jesus?????? Hello, are you awake or in an eternal hellish orgasm!!!!!! Listen, you fool!!! My Jesus is Lord and God and Saviour and King!!!! Bottomline, he is not your bloody toy-boy!!!!! I suggest that you firstly understand what the religious harmony bill is all about!!!! The way you have described both my Jesus and my Catholic religion is abhorrent and totally goes against the religious harmony bill!!! I advise you to stop this rubbish immediately or face the legal ramifications enjoined!!!!!

    (Note to Donald: Please do not use capital letters in your comments. It shows a lack of Internet etiquette. Thank you. - Catholic Writer)

  22. Hi Donald,

    I understand that this title of me of “having sex with Jesus” is foreign to Catholic teaching, and may be misleading if one does not read the entire post before commenting. If you had, you will find that the article draws the link between the Sacrament of Holy Matrimony and the Sacrament of the Holy Eucharist, a link that Pope John Paul II himself draws in his ‘theology of the body’.

    The article does NOT go into any description of any sexual experience that I had with Jesus, save for the ecstasy that I experienced on receiving Holy Communion, that is, one flesh union with Jesus.

    I don’t believe that there is anything anti-Catholic about having ecstasies while receiving Holy Communion. After all many holy people like St. Ignatius of Loyola, St. Pio of Pietrelcina and Blessed Imelda Lambertini have experienced the same. In fact, let me quote from what Padre Pio said to his spiritual children about his Mass. He calls it “a sacred merging with Christ’s passion”. What a wonderful description, don’t you think so?

    And as for your other question which is known to you alone, I believe people have Internet monikers for a reason. For the purposes of this blog, mine is “Catholic Writer”.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  23. Dear Catholic Writer,

    It’s my first time visiting your site. I’m actually quite amaze the way you respond to people. I think you’re very intelligent and very knowledageble about your religion. I’m also a catholic, but I never really read the bible. I’m still confuse why you use the word sex because people thinks that having sex is having intercourse and everything that comes with it. Would you think it’ll be more appropriate if you said you made love with jesus? Other than that, I think you’re great.

    Happy Holiday,
    Vic

  24. Hi Victor,

    Thanks for the compliments! I tried a number of times to read the Bible, but never got very far until I started praying and reflecting on Bible passages, using the daily readings. I found that reading the Bible and praying the Bible are very different, and the latter brings about a closer experience with Jesus.

    As for “having sex with Jesus”, I would say the primary reason I wrote that is to draw readers’ attention to the article. :) And I think it works. Of course every now and then, someone makes a judgement on the content without having read and understood it. It can’t be helped, I suppose.

    Also, I guess the reason why I wrote it is because I actually did say that to a friend when she asked me how my day was. The result was shock, at first, and then curiosity, and it gave me the opportunity to explain what I meant. It also helped this person to better understand the real purpose of sex, instead of what people today often mistake it for.

    Sex is more than an mere orgasmic exchange of bodily fluids. It is a sharing and giving of two selves, uniting in a single body. And the best part of it is that sex is holy, for it is created by God for men and women to participate in His creation of new life. To that end, sex involves a free, unconditional and faithful gift of ourselves to our spouse.

    So I guess it would perhaps be more appropriate to say that I made love with Jesus, but perhaps it would also not be as attention-grabbing. :P

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  25. Catholic Writer,

    You know, I thought about that too. You’re just simply getting peoples attention. But with everything that’s going on right now, like few priests molested children, it’s probably best not to use sex with Jesus because it will hurt your reputation. But I don’t believe that you’re a pervert for chosing that word. I understand your point of view. Even Jesus used such words to test the faith of his followers. Whether they would keep their faith to God or merely just lose their trust just because of a single word or a phrase without knowing what the message behind it. I’m looking forward in learning from your writings.

    God bless you too,
    Victor

  26. Thanks for the affirmation, Victor. I appreciate it.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  27. Catholic Writer,

    I really appreciate this topic, I have had similar experiences while deep in meditation. I was overtaken with the most intense feeling of love - love of God. the feeling was so strong and sustained that the only thing i can compare it with is the feeling of bliss during and after an orgasm. during these experiences i also felt communion and love toward other people, but all the time i knew it was God presence inside of them that made it all possible.
    I believe earthly sex is an image or shadow of the communion or “spiritual intercorse” between God and man. there is nothing offensive or sacriligeous about your experience if you look at it that way. many mystics best describe their experiences with sexual/ erotic metephors.

    God bless

  28. I celebrate Eucharist every day and enjoying making love with Jesus. Our goal as Christians is to seek an intimate love life with Jesus. Those who are not lovers will look at us and never understand.

    love and blessing,

    Bishop +Michael

  29. I agree with Bishop +Michael. I believe how each of us relate to the Eucharist depends very much on what relationship we have with Jesus. For those who see Jesus as their lover, seeing the Eucharist as making love is as logical as seeing lovemaking with our spouses. Note that I use the word “logical”. For me I use it to mean explainable or understandable or natural.

    I guess it also boils down to what sex is or means in today’s context. Perhaps because the first impression it gives is of the physical sense, we find it hard to imagine the other aspects of sex & I think for guys, it is even harder imagining it with Jesus, a man. In today’s context, it sure gives an impression of homosexuality.

    However I applaude CatholicWriter’s courage in sharing in this manner, & expressing in these words. Meanwhile, I do not discount how anyone else who feel uncomfortable with this way of expression about the Eucharist. I believe you too have a close relationship with Jesus in your own way.

    To share, I’m personally not comfortable with seeing the Eucharist as lovemaking with Jesus. In fact I cannot find myself seeing Jesus in the lover role to me. You can call it an affection by popular culture or society I’m in. Barring any sudden life-changing experience, my relationship with Jesus will always be anything but lover, and I’m comfortable with that. Meanwhile, I accept that it is entirely possible & acceptable that others, male or female, can find Jesus as their wonderful lover. After all, in the course of Christian history, many saints have expressed similar experiences with Jesus. & I wholly respect the different ways people see their relationship with Jesus, & well, if that’s where each of them is happy being at, then that’s good. I’m sure eventually Jesus will work through His relationship with us in a way that’s we happy with, just like romantic relationships & friendships. =)

  30. Hi Vagabond!

    It’s been a long time since I saw you comment anything on my blog. What brought you here today?

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

  31. Haha… A little bit more free time. & so happen that this post was on the featured list when I dropped by.

  32. Thanks for posting this. I always felt this in my heart but never expressed it for fear of offending people. Yes, receiving Jesus in the Eucharist is like receiving the bridegroom in sexual union. Many of the Catholic mystics such as St. John of the Cross and St. Catherine of Siena talk about this, they describe their relationship with Jesus as a relationship between the lover and the beloved. Its such a beautiful teaching and one that needs to be expressed more openly without fear or shame.

  33. Hi Vagabond, Barbara,

    I think this experience is considered a mystical experience, as in, it’s the kind that mystics experience.

    God bless,
    Catholic Writer

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  35. [...] Conjugal union, Holy Communion - This line refers to the above point, but it also points to the mystery of conjugal union which is likened to the mystery of Holy Communion. I explain it more deeply in this post: I had sex with Jesus! [...]

  36. I am utterly, and completely amazed by your post and the ensuing discussion. It is truly enthralling!

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