I recently got in touch with a friend from my junior college. He’s pretty well-known now as the owner of Singapore’s #1 blog on wedding. He started blogging in August 2006, and has developed a way to earn $1000-2000 a month through advertisements and such from his blog, and has written a book about it.
When I heard about it, my immediate first reaction was to say that, “Hey, I want this too! And I want it for Catholic Writings!” So I shot an email off to Clare, who taught me how to use WordPress to set up my own TheCatholicWriter.com website, which I use to consolidate all the (Catholic) writing that I do.
That night, I went to bed feeling extremely excited at the prospects of earning $1000-2000 from my soon-to-come Catholic blog, but I felt a great sense of uneasiness and unrest as well. I struggled hard to get to sleep, but could not do so.
Having been doing the Examen of Consciousness for some time, I have learnt to tell the difference between a spiritual consolation and a spiritual desolation. Although this adrenaline-pumping feeling coursing through me was very similar to the kind of rush I get while writing, I was able to identify that this feeling was in fact my gut feeling ringing alarm bells in my head.
Ever since my experience of nearly getting conned at Sim Lim, I have learnt to obey my gut feeling even if I can’t explain it rationally. I finally fell asleep.
The answer came to me the next day, during an MSN conversation with Clare. She wisely advised me not to go ahead with it and explained the reason for my uneasiness – Catholic Writings is a form of ministry, and I should not use this ministry for profit. She also gave a rational response – Catholic Writings will only attract advertisements from those who want to promote sex, pornography, masturbation, homosexuality, etc. How true!
So, once again, I see my hopes for turning Catholic Writings into a money-making machine fly out the window. But thanks to Clare, I now have a reason to keep Catholic Writings going as a ministry, and as the #1 Catholic Blog in Singapore!
P.S.: Look out for a viewpoint of mine in this weekend’s issue of CatholicNews. It concerns working in the church and my ongoing dilemma about money and ministry.